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catching on you, finding for you

I remember that day
The moment, I saw him smiling at me gently 10 meters away from me.
I kept walking, pretending I didn't see him.
I knew he smiled at me and kept watching me walking to him.
He was relieved seeing me.
He held my hands.
I smiled, but I was kinda... this was not gonna be like the everlasting something.
Then we walked together.
I felt warm near by him, like always. He is always a warm guy.


If you saw through his brown eyes, you would swim in there forever.
If you listened to his laughter, you would bet anything to hear the laughter.
If you felt his skin, you would feel a warm blanket is surrounding on you.
If you kissed him, you would taste a blend between chocolate, coffee, and cigarettes. And you might be addicted just in a time.

At the same day.
I broke his heart. I remember that sorrow.
It was not great.
Stupid statements.
Stupid questions.
Stupid thoughts.
I broke him. His bright eyes turned into grey.
I just.....
realized I was so stupid.



The time, then.... I admitted, I still could not go along without him. Though in a mean time, we have no good ending at last.